Finding Drea~

Each day upon wakening.., it doesn't matter the time.
I'm gripped with panic when opening my eyes.
Anxieties abound, and all too familiar in my mind.
It's nauseating; the eerie comfort I've found,
in anything that I'm perpetually inclined...
Expectations at times I find, tend to let me down.

I've no choice but to deal with and accept!
However the uncertainty I find..,
leaves me frightened and consumed with denial.
No longer focused. I'm unable to concentrate.
Too much effort is now required, in eliciting a smile...
So overwhelmed! I'm lost in a sea of my own thoughts.
Confusion runs rampant, as I explore methods
to function and cope.
I'm frightened, when battling through these
waves of emotions!
Panic has now turned to frustration.., as I'm found so disoriented by hope!..

Each night lying down to sleep, here's what I find.
I've now found Andie, praying to GOD!
Praying to him, begging him, and pleading to him..,
"Please GOD?! Don't let me lose my mind!"