Finding me....

**All my life I had been looking for something, and everywhere I turned someone tried to tell me what it was. I accepted their answers too, though they were often in contradiction and even self-contradictory. I was naïve. I was looking for myself and asking everyone except myself questions which I, and only I, could answer. It took me a long time and much painful boomeranging of my expectations to achieve a realization everyone else appears to have been born with: that I am nobody but myself.

**Always be a first-rate version of yourself, instead of a second-rate version of somebody else.

**Never be bullied into silence. Never allow yourself to be made a victim. Accept no one's definition of your life; define yourself.


I have spent so many years trying to be someone I am NOT or someone I thought I was or should be… I lost myself and the real me along the way and it has taken me all this time to find out who I really am.
I am a walking contradiction!
I am candy pink Argyle sweaters and black rimmed eyes…
I am a goof looking for my ball
I am shy
I am in your face
I am raw and raunchy…
I am the live and let live girl… Happy go lucky girl…
I have skeletons in my closet.
I don’t throw stones because I live in a glass house.
I don’t have walls; I have a fortress around my heart.
I sing in the rain and dance in the snow.
I am like a snowflake; I am NEVER the same girl twice in a row.
I have secrets I will never tell.
I will somehow someway fuck everything up….

I draw with soul and conviction found only in true beauty….
I love unconditionally…..

I am a skinny girl inside a fat body screaming to be let out , but dying on the inside because I have yet to accept that I can not change it back…
I am spicy like Indian curry , but cool to the touch..
Yup I am just me and I am okay with that!